Yesterday, our family entered a new and unexpected “walk of faith”. I’ve been praying for many of you who are already on this journey, and now my family joins you. As of July 15, my husband’s position at Lifeway will be deleted, and he will be out of a job. I can hardly believe what I just typed.
Although I’m in shock right now and have cried so much that my eyes are swollen, I can see bits and pieces of how the Lord was preparing us for this and setting us up to be ready for this next step of our walks with Him. Some of the obvious ones are:
~Without my understanding of what the Lord was doing, He called me to step down from being the Teaching Director of our local community Bible Study.
~My responsibilities with Praying Parents ended at the end of this past school year when Abigail moved to middle school.
~The Lord led us to repaint our house and start getting it ready to sell. We thought we were doing this so that in a year or so, we could move to a home with an apartment in it where my mom could come and live with us. Maybe we were, and maybe we will need to sell it now.
~I’ve been doing Jennifer Rothschild’s study “Walking by Faith”, and have been soaking up every word of that incredible study. I’ve taken thorough notes from the daily lessons – which came in really handy yesterday, btw – and The Lord will use those truths to guide me/us as we walk ahead.
~And lots of other little things or little “thoughts” that the Lord has zipped through my heart and mind lately… all of which didn’t make sense until yesterday.
Just this past Wednesday night, I was looking around our house with those clean, smooth, freshly painted empty walls and I realized that I don’t have a decorating “point of view” anymore. I know what I like, but have been trying to find a balance between what I like, what I have, and the need to stay on the “neutral” side of décor so that the house will be easy to stage to sell. I’ve been praying about it, and as of yet, have had no general direction. I’ve only had specific direction for the next step of what needs to be done.
As I was pondering all of this on Wednesday, I told my husband that the walls in our house represent how I feel about my life right now. With the closure of so many things, I’m open and ready for all kinds of possibilities, but as of yet, don’t have any direction except for the next present step. I had no idea how very true that statement would turn out to be. Just two days later, all four of the Walkers find ourselves just like these walls… Ready for something – but not sure just what that is.
What I am sure of is that this is now the time in our lives where the rubber meets the road. It’s the time for us to flesh out what we study and believe and speak of on a daily basis. It’s where our faith in God as our Provider and Leader will be put in action.
At this point, we have no idea what we will do or where we will go. But we do know that the Lord is well aware of our situation, prepared us beforehand, has plans for our good and His glory, that He will lead us and provide for us as we obey Him keep our (tear-swollen) eyes fixed on Him.
We’re starting a family journal about this journey – where each one of us can write what we’ve seen the Lord do as we wait upon and trust in Him. You may be sick of hearing about this journey by the time it’s done… but we’re going to be Smelling a lot of Coffee around here – seeking the “aroma of the knowledge of Christ in every place”. We sure would appreciate your prayers as the Lord brings us to your minds.
I look up to the mountains—
does my help come from there?
My help comes from the LORD,
who made heaven and earth!
He will not let you stumble;
the one who watches over you will not slumber.
Indeed, he who watches over Israel
never slumbers or sleeps.
The LORD himself watches over you!
The LORD stands beside you as your protective shade.
The sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon at night.
The LORD keeps you from all harm
and watches over your life.
The LORD keeps watch over you as you come and go,
both now and forever.
Psalm 121 (NLT)
God’s timing is perfect, and we’re so thankful that this is the cup God has chosen for us. This is just the loss of a job – not the loss of a loved one.
I pray for every one of you that read Smelling Coffee, and I realize that many of you are on this same “faith walk” with us. Let’s pray for each other… because one of these days, we’ll all have incredible testimonies of what God has done and is doing in and through these situations.
Thank you, friends… May the Lord keep watch over you as you come and go, and wait upon Him, too.